A new day

I feel like there is a giant hole in my heart and with every breath I take I have to fight back tears. I know that this lost and painful feeling will pass with a little time. I went to bed early last night hoping that I would get some rest. Most of the night was spent tossing and turning. I did not have you here to put your arm around me. This is one thing that will take a while to get use to. 

Today I plan on getting some things done my number one is to get the garage cleaned up so I can park in there before the snow starts to fall. The other is to get all of your things put in a safe place so that moths and dust don't ruin them. I fear this will be the hardest part of my day.

Brooke went straight to her flat daddy this morning and gave him a kiss and talked to him. Then she took him to the living room so that he could watch Blues Clues with her before she left for Pre-school. This is so very precious and did in fact make me cry. She misses her daddy.

I will smile today knowing that even though you are away from me I am in your every thought and you love me and miss me as much as I do you.

xoxoxo, Rachel

I'll be seeing you

This will be the first of many posts to come. I am calling this blog Operation Acorn. This is my personal journey during this first deployment that I now face. Why Acorn you might ask? Its the nickname that my wonderful husband has given to me.

Today was one of the hardest days of my life. The last morning I had with him for a year and his final moments were rushed and I didn't even get a kiss goodbye... This is not at all how I expected it to be. I just wanted to hold onto him and never let go. The tears flooded my face and It took everything in me to not completely break down. We had a lot of family support today and I thank you all for being there for us on a day when we really needed you.

We got a flat daddy and little miss watched The Princess and The Frog with him today. It was so sweet she sat right next to him on the couch and kept smiling. I will post a pic later of this flat daddy. Its pure genius I tell ya! 

Over all I would say that I'm holding up pretty well. If I could shut my brain off that would be amazing! Little random crying sessions keep happening and I imagine that will be, for a while yet. I know that life will fall into a routine and this year will fly by. Stay busy, stay healthy and laugh often! Oh and watch The Vampire Diaries every Thursday night online that helps too!

Goodnight everyone and I'll report and post pictures soon

xoxoxo, Rachel